Never Saw It Coming

If you were to ask anyone that knew the little girl that loved barbies and her kitten Ashes, will she be a dancer in a bar later in life? I am sure the answer would have been a firm no! After all I was being raised in a upper middle class family that gave me all the best in life and I was in church throughout my childhood. So who in the world would have seen it? Only everyone who knew the very troubled kid in me, the eight year old very badly abused girl that this sweet couple adopted that would be hell to raise because she did not trust anyone and would do dumb foolish things with little understanding of why she even did. But to shut down and find the most dangerous situations and people she could was not one people saw coming. In a flip of a switch she would date a man who had a blind rage temper that would bring the two of them toe to toe on occasion with his best friend grabbing his arm as it is in full swing to lay her out.

I lost my brother, my blood (we were adopted together) at eighteen and he was only seventeen. THAT nobody saw coming and THAT sent me off and ledge that was almost impossible to pull me back from. If it had not been for God giving me my girls I would have never came back from that loss. I had finally loved someone as much as I loved my brother. I had a reason to fight to find the girl in there that could get past the damage and have a life.